So, greetings to my readers, and first and foremost, good morning and lets all breathe in the air of thursday morning. Yippee.

And so, here i am blogging. Keeping update on my doings, for my dear readers out there. Oh well, by now i am sure, all of u know that I have a boring life indeed. Yup yup.

Ok and so, wad did i do today?

-Went out with tish at JP.
-Met boyffie and friend at JP.
-Went to my JOY house.

Hahahahaahx. And yup had a great day indeed. I am so loving it. The lil chef Faiz, cooked for me, curry instant noodle and Rezeki babi, taught me how to put on the sarong, and make it into "zorro" mask. WTF. Hahaahhax. And yup, went back home, and had my itunes play the songs in the playlist.

My itunes seems to understand my mood. When you're gone by avril lavinge, bleeding love by leona lewis, tattoo by Jordan sparks, songs like that keeps on playing, and yup its soothing to my ears due to the fact that, i miss boyffie alot. Yup yup.

And so, sitting on the concrete cold floor, while typing in my entry with my Acer aspire 5580 on the bed, missing my boyffie, thinking of solutions and worrying about things around, makes me realise that, i had reached a certain point in life where, i have to be responsible of my own actions.

For example, an incident at esplanade, where i so wanna "pump" the girl face, and i was at the verge of doing that, then i realise that, she was just a "YP" and yup, its so immature of me to do that.

Next, when someone actually throw the tantrums and yell at me, i did not react harshly back at them, but instead, i take it, and forget about it, then i will try to comfort them. Yup, i have my reasons for doing that, and its because, the person throwing tantrums is sure to feel vexed, or perharps anger and emotions is all pissed and stuff, so why add more fire to fire, when u can add water? Yup.

And yesh, alot more examples and i guess i shall not continue... :)

At the back of my mind, I am like wondering how can i not talk to my parents without losing my cool. I mean, i can endure and stand hardship from other's word but seriously not with my parents. I just gave up and take their words and swallow it down, and once i am alone in my room, my heart wrecks. Yup. Oh well, thats something that i have to learn to endure.

Well, i guess this entry is dedicated to myself, my inner self. Yup.

And till here, i dunno why, but something makes me wanna cry, and funny isn't it, i kept my sorrow, my anger, compiling everything up and let it go when there is no longer space to hold them up.

I guess the day is today, and so. Goodnight my readers.

PS: Alfirdaus i miss u and i am thinking of u.