Ok i cracked, as much as i hate typing this post i have too. My heart ripping apart. I am such sore loser. Cry cry cry. I can't help it. My god, give me the strength please. I have to let this out.
Everything just gone bad today.
As much as i love my friend, at least the worries is now over, decision make, financial is there. Lets just hope procedure gonna be ok. But its the emotions that i am worried. I am sorry that i can't be there. We love you girl.
I am really sorry. I am such useless fool. I didn't even try, infact my stupidity makes it worse. I make everything worse. Yesh i did. I am so sorry. Once again, i can't be there. Omg,can i just be shot.
I am such stupid fool. OMG! I am so frustrated with myself.