Here i am sitting in the national library, all alone, listening to graduation and chatting with Mel, like finally. Well, at last, the unfinished has finally been clarified, and I guess, we somehow figure out what went wrong after his funeral a year and a half ago.

Its really a long chat for us, remembering happy times with him, crying over his death and the connection like what Mel said, chemistry between me and him. I know, whatever been buried is not nice for us, to talk about it, but somehow, we have to make it clear, cause the truth is, we still love each other but somehow, things were never meant to be after the funeral. Instead of getting much more closer, me and her totally shut off and soon enough, ties were broken.

Your brother is someone sweet. He is always there for me. I still remember clearly that, I was breaking down and I just need time alone. Despite his busy scheduel, he eventually came to look for me at ECP. He didn't say a word when he met me. Knowing my character, all he did was look me in the eyes and gave me a warm hug, and without any minute, everything just pour out in a long cry. As a fifteen year old, I was just naive, never to take things seriously, and never knew the meaning of appreaciation. I had my time with him even if its only for a year. I am still greatful to have such a friend like him, that takes good care of me.

Mel, everyone loves him. He had been such a good person, god loves him more. And I guess, he wants us to regain back our friendship.

I love u so much :))