Hello human being =)
I am back from my holiday...
Woo hoo, bali is the happening shit!
Yesh thats right, happening like hell...
Clubs, to drinks, to cigerattes, to food, to water theme parks, to massages!
Entertainment is such a bliss for party animal.

No cover charge for club entering, all u have to do is buy a drink.
Liqour, beers and most importantly COCKTAILS and SHOTS cost less than $10.
And their batender makes the nicest drink ever!!
Cigerrattes, cost $2, and u can even order it in clubs and restaurants.
Music wise, basically same range of songs as Powerhouse, but the only difference, theirs has much more songs, and the club is filled with australians and people from other country.





Water theme park is the coolest, wild wild wet, is rubbish compared to waterboom. Great food, great music, great slides, great pools, 8 thumbs up =))

And the good part is, u get more services, safety and attention just because your a tourist.
Hehehe!!

The only negtive points that I can think of is, i am growing horizontally and i gain 5kg during my 4 days stay.
Food is super duper cheap,and not forgetting it taste good!!

Enough with words, pictures are made available at multiply site.

Smile and party hard earthlings

=))

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Yesh girls, today is my departing day.
And yesh babies, i will stay strong.

Well, its a good thing that I am going away.
Alfi will be able to have his own time,
and lets just hope that somehow,
he will realise my efforts, determination and faithfulness towards him.

Well, I know, my readers are all ladies, and i don't wish to be a sexist here.

But guys do have one fucked up bloody big ego.

And yesh, like what you girls told me, it happened to me today.
Hahahahx. And yesh, i feel very the tersinggung.

Oh well.

I am at the stage where, my emotion and thinking got so immune by it.

And ohhhhh, moving on.



Its a must watch okies....
Movie date real soon chickies.
=)

So yeah, hello earthlings.
Apologise for the lack of updates.
Been busy or plainly lazy to post in an entry.
Anyways, yesh, i know, no updates = worried friends.
Hahahahx.
Yesh and i am aware of that.
Blogspot has been a space that we would constantly read for our friend well-being, as some things, are better projected out in this manner.

Anyways, 2 more days till departure.
Nyehahaahahahax.
And i super duper can't wait.
=))

Anyhooo, life has been great.
Nightlife has been a bliss.
And i am pretty sure 2/3 of my avid readers, knows what i am talking about.
Hehehex.
And oooo... Powerhouse is the happening shit.
Dump clarke quay, and get down to harbourfront for good shits.

And no Janet, I am not gay.
Hahahahx.
I do have a boyfriend.
Hahahahax.

Well, hello earthlings.
Good morning infact.
hmmm where shall i start?
How about, I got sup paper to take,
but the good part is,
my GPA increse!!
YESSA!!!

Anyhooo, nothing can bring my spirit down today.
Thanks to MR ALFIRDAUS!!
Well, seriously, after weeks of so called "coldness"
Today, the warmness is back again.
and i must say, today he is the guy that i fall in love with.

No full information shall be leaked today.
Hehehex.

My baby, is being such a darl.
Despite his tiredness and rimas-ness, he puts in the effort to enjoy time spent with me.
hehe.
And that is all i asked for.

But thats not all.
He randomly bought me a rose.
Nyehahaha.
And as you people already know, I am a suckers to flowers.
Hehehex.
I LOVE GETTING FLOWERS!
And it was such a delightful suprise for me.
And no people, i did not even give him any hints.
Nyehahahaa.

Okies, multiply page for pictures okies.

=))

Hello, so yesh, i must say, i miss hugging babies, feeding and showering them. =(
Its only the second day, and god knows how I am coping with it.
I AM BORED TO THE MAX!
Slacking at home is no fun at all.
With food, i have grown horizontally.
OH NOOOOO!

And so, pictures at the zoo has been uploaded.
Multiply for full album =)



Anyways, past week has been crazy.
Emotions run wild.
Its much more settled now.
But this, I am still own my guard.
Somehow, my own mechanisms can't seems to simmer down.
But whatever it is, life has to move on, and will have to face reality every single day.

=)

So, NYP webby is so so so busy with networking.
And till now, i have yet to check my result.
Haix, double haix.
I wonder whats the outcome gonna be like.
Scary yesh yesh yesh!
Haiyah.

Anyways, lets take my mind off it first.



if u happen to see your picture there, it means you are someone really special to me.
Hehehex.
And ohhh, the size or perharps, repeatance of your photos doesn't matter, cause it is all arranged by the software itself.
Hehehex.

Okies, basically, i am posting something-sungguh-tak-perlu.
Hahahax.
Ok chaoz

My heart is wrenching
Today, i know who are the ones that i can lean on.
And sadly enough, the person that I love very much, comes under the "NOT" category.
I thought i was ok with it, but tears starts rolling.

If a stranger could offer me with tissues and even offer to send me home, why can't he even asked me a simple "are u ok?"

Am i asking too much?

hello earthlings!
So yup, monday blues finally over, and yesh, its tuesday.
And that indicates that I have 4 more shifts before attachment is officially over.

17th of march: result day baby

and till then i will be busy mugging for supps and right after sups paper period is over, i will be flying to Bali for short holiday with my bitch. Hehehx. (and the uncle,auntie and not forgetting his son). Oh well. Well this trip is just for trial, and if everything is well, i shall organise another trip and this time is strictly under no supervision.

Well, bali trip is all planned out, and we had little plans to sneak out on our own.
Places to visit has been decided. And I am so gonna take the Aj Hackett bungy jump in club 66. Hehehx. Sadly, shopping is out of our list for now, since activities were all planned out for us in the day, and the only time we are free is at night which contradicts with the shops closing time which is at 7, so yup, lack of shopping time =( and futhermore,we only have 2 full days for activities.

Hmmmm. Well, at least its better than nothing right.

And yesh, i know I have not been replying messages or anwsering calls. Apologise.
Yup, seriously, its either i am in the ward or at home sleeping. I wake up, go for attachment, go home, wash up and sleep. Thats my daily routine, be it, morning or afternoon shift. So the only time i will be free is on the weekends. Ohhhh. And depending on Alfi, at times, my sunday is taken, but usually its from 4pm to 8pm. So yup, anyone wants to organise a date with me, i will be free on the saturday, sunday from morning till 4pm or 8pm onwards. =)

Okies, and till here for now.
I gotta sign out.

Good day beautiful people.

Well, as many of you would have notice by now, that blog entry is strictly on invited readers...
And only special people that I trust very the much, will be able to get access to my little space in the net...

But still got abit of technical problem.

Anyone knows how to stop my multiply from exporting my blog entry to my multiply site? Needs help like ASAP!

Oh well, not as private as i think it is i guess...

Anyways, Sunday, yup, time flies...
Seriously, short and unsatisfactory...

Today had been quite emotional for me though.

Thanks to my babies, that they are willing to sit down and let me cry on their shoulder even though, god knows how much work they have to do for their FYP. Well, i must say you babies, really knows me. And me being me, yeah, i guess, you will know my decision that I will make, and thats the reason why, you people has been given the privileged to read this.

Love i had is way bigger than my ego.

Even for short 2 hours and even if most of the time spent today wasted on playing game, i still enjoy it, cause the thing is, i missed him so bloody much that why should i not appreciate his presence for the reason that maybe i thought he is not appreciating mine? FYI, girls, I am not as fortunate as all of you, i only get to see my BF for probably 2-5 hours in a whole week which means its about 2.98% of the entire 168hours.

I know you girls care, i know you girls tried to restrain me from getting hurt again. I am really sorry, that i couldn't listen, cause the thing is, you are not me, and its quite bias of u for making judgement, when the thing is, you don't even realise that some action done, has its own underlying reason. And yesh, perharps, his meaning of love, care and concern is different from me, and why in the world, am i trained to be a nurse, if i can't accept differences? Like i mention before, we had our age gaps, things that is important to me may not be important to him, and obviously major differences, he is a male and i, a female. Men, as if you girls don't know, has this little part called ignorant and selfish, its in their nature, isn't that part of the cycle?

We girls sacrifice our sleep to wake them up in the morning, to wait till they are home safely, we worked our way to get things they wanted no matter how much they cost, our physical strength, to meet them and to get things done for them even though god knows how tired you are, but yet we never complaint, and why did we do all this? For the name of love, care and concern.

Guys will do things for you, yesh they will, but mostly they will racked it up or make you feel bad by complaining and whinning. And when things go wrong, they blame you. They expect us to listen but ever they listen to us? When we whine and complaint, what will they say? "Accept it, things happen dont complaint" but still even with this action that is such turn off and hurts 99.99999% of the female population in the world, one thing doesn't change, they loves you. And even for those bustards that fool around, having flings and sex everywhere, one thing doesn't change, if he loves a women, he will come back to her at the end of the day.

So do you think the world between this two genders is FAIR?

If no, then why in the world that you are still hangging around your BF and fiance?

You get what I am trying to say?

I am very sorry that somehow, i gt pissed somewhere in this entry, but i can't help it. Its like you girls understand, but you girls dont understand.

I figured it out, and i know my root problem is. And the only solution is to make him understand.

Whatever it is, I will try my very best, to make him understand me. And if i want things to work, i need to persevered and talk things out, even if things go nasty, i shall be strong.

And babies, i still love you girls, and what i need now is support, not another suggestion that will somehow cause a broken relationship.

Oh well, thanks for readin this lenghty post, please give me advices (not suggestion)

good day special earthlings =)

PS: F4 meet up soon pls! IMY girls bloody alot

Be with someone, that can appreaciation you.
Treat you like, you are the only girl left in this world.
Someone that will smile even during bad times when he hears your voice.
Someone that loves you more than he loves himself.

Okies, this is the part where i will say, its too late to regret, you lost me and like i say before if i love, i can sacrifice... you were given a chance, but you never did.

My ex, had finally move on.
And his so called " i-will-not-disturb-you-in-your-relationship-anymore" message, was indeed sweet and i am pretty much happy that he got himself someone new.

Well, treat her like how you treated me.

constantly give her hugs , for signs of security and that you are always there for her. Pecks and little kisses, to remind her how much you love her.

Surprises and random visits, to show that you indeed put in the effort that you do care about her, and a special girl like her, deserve all the happiness in the world.

And one major thing that you should not do, never ever cheat on her. Never ever conclude that lust without love is possible.

Well Mr playa, i hope that you would stay to one.

My time with you has been wonderful, you treated me with love, and makes me feel like a princess each and every day, but i can't carry on with you, knowing that, you played behind my back, and treat those pitiful girls like some sort of rubbish. Unlike you, I do care of other people, and I care of my love ones more than myself.

Okies, but thats not the main purpose of this post actually.
The thing is, his little words, has make me think.
Am i receiving what I ought to receive?

Am i really happy or am i lying to myself, thinking that my make belief love life is happening, when the fact that it is not even close to one?

I really hate it when the ex is starting to make sense.

I wanted to talk about this, but, somehow, I didnt want Alfi to feel hurt about it. Don't get me wrong I don't love him anywhere less infact it gets more each time. And this is like one of the matters that couples need to clear to makes the relationship healtier. Haiyah, why am i feeling like this?

Hello, and so, 5 days left.
Yup yup, and suprisingly time flies very very very quickly on saturday shift.
Nyehahahahax.

Slept through the afternoon+evening, and here i am blogging away at this late hour.

Attachment has been great for the past few days.
Well perharps, its because that two of the patient, is somehow connected to my special ones.

My baby cousin and my bestie aunt gave birth and yup, post-natal done in the ward that I am attached too. And it so happens that, I was assigned to the their cubicles. And I must say, it was quite interesting, resisting the urge to stay and chat with my bitch, and not showing favouritsm by putting special attention on the baby and mother.

And oh yah, the best part was, both new borns were super duper cute, and obviously me, being a freak, kiasuly, seize the opportunity to shower them. Nyehahahahhx.

Okies, lets move on, before I start telling more confidential information on my patients.

=)

good day people

And and and, guess what.

Yesterday, 1 march 09 was supposingly our first anniversary.
Yesh, me and Alfi, is a year older
Hehex.
And the plan is to eventually get married when the next leap year is due.
Insyallah.

Wow, a year. haahax.
Time do flies very very fast.
With good and bad times together,
we have make it through.

I must say that, our relationship is not a smooth sailing.
We have gone through series of obstacles,
and with determination, forgiveness, faith, trust and G.A.T (give and take)
it really makes the whole journey easy.
It is hard for me and him obviously.

Considering our age gap, him being older and me still having the immature thinking.
Our own egos to put up with; the nature of men ego and the ego of a teenager.
And conflict to our past. Well at least for me, I am not sure about him.
Like I mention before, it is a whole new experience for me.
I never love and be loved by someone like him before.
I didn't know how to react at times, but with time, i guess i adapt well.
The past have spoilt me, lust and luxury is mistaken for love.
Gifts and orders come too easily for me. Self-dependency is no longer in my dictionary. I was blinded enough with princess treatment, that i was too blind to even notice that he wasn't faithful, and get my heart shattered. The ex plays it well.

Alfi, taught me a new meaning to love.
With nothing, he makes me love him like nobody business, he makes me think of him, and he makes me yearn for him.
He brought me back into reality.
Being with him makes me gain back my independency
And somehow, i am much vocal now.
I no longer say yesh to everything and i am much wise in choosing the decision that will benefit me the most.

Oh well, its too early to tell, but i believe that what i am going through with him is what I will call love.

=)

Good day everyone.