Well, as many of you would have notice by now, that blog entry is strictly on invited readers...
And only special people that I trust very the much, will be able to get access to my little space in the net...

But still got abit of technical problem.

Anyone knows how to stop my multiply from exporting my blog entry to my multiply site? Needs help like ASAP!

Oh well, not as private as i think it is i guess...

Anyways, Sunday, yup, time flies...
Seriously, short and unsatisfactory...

Today had been quite emotional for me though.

Thanks to my babies, that they are willing to sit down and let me cry on their shoulder even though, god knows how much work they have to do for their FYP. Well, i must say you babies, really knows me. And me being me, yeah, i guess, you will know my decision that I will make, and thats the reason why, you people has been given the privileged to read this.

Love i had is way bigger than my ego.

Even for short 2 hours and even if most of the time spent today wasted on playing game, i still enjoy it, cause the thing is, i missed him so bloody much that why should i not appreciate his presence for the reason that maybe i thought he is not appreciating mine? FYI, girls, I am not as fortunate as all of you, i only get to see my BF for probably 2-5 hours in a whole week which means its about 2.98% of the entire 168hours.

I know you girls care, i know you girls tried to restrain me from getting hurt again. I am really sorry, that i couldn't listen, cause the thing is, you are not me, and its quite bias of u for making judgement, when the thing is, you don't even realise that some action done, has its own underlying reason. And yesh, perharps, his meaning of love, care and concern is different from me, and why in the world, am i trained to be a nurse, if i can't accept differences? Like i mention before, we had our age gaps, things that is important to me may not be important to him, and obviously major differences, he is a male and i, a female. Men, as if you girls don't know, has this little part called ignorant and selfish, its in their nature, isn't that part of the cycle?

We girls sacrifice our sleep to wake them up in the morning, to wait till they are home safely, we worked our way to get things they wanted no matter how much they cost, our physical strength, to meet them and to get things done for them even though god knows how tired you are, but yet we never complaint, and why did we do all this? For the name of love, care and concern.

Guys will do things for you, yesh they will, but mostly they will racked it up or make you feel bad by complaining and whinning. And when things go wrong, they blame you. They expect us to listen but ever they listen to us? When we whine and complaint, what will they say? "Accept it, things happen dont complaint" but still even with this action that is such turn off and hurts 99.99999% of the female population in the world, one thing doesn't change, they loves you. And even for those bustards that fool around, having flings and sex everywhere, one thing doesn't change, if he loves a women, he will come back to her at the end of the day.

So do you think the world between this two genders is FAIR?

If no, then why in the world that you are still hangging around your BF and fiance?

You get what I am trying to say?

I am very sorry that somehow, i gt pissed somewhere in this entry, but i can't help it. Its like you girls understand, but you girls dont understand.

I figured it out, and i know my root problem is. And the only solution is to make him understand.

Whatever it is, I will try my very best, to make him understand me. And if i want things to work, i need to persevered and talk things out, even if things go nasty, i shall be strong.

And babies, i still love you girls, and what i need now is support, not another suggestion that will somehow cause a broken relationship.

Oh well, thanks for readin this lenghty post, please give me advices (not suggestion)

good day special earthlings =)

PS: F4 meet up soon pls! IMY girls bloody alot